WEAVING THROUGHT THE WALLS OF HOPE
A COVERSATION WITH BRITTANY--A DANCE WITH QUOTES AND THOUGHTS
OF WAYS TO DRAW PEOPLE IN TO FIND SOME PERSONAL VALUE IN THIS QUEST.
Brittany, for the 5th time in 10 years I will try to raise a reward fund. I will keep trying to find a national voice (national news) to join the 132 + voices of local reporters who shared our story across 46 states doing the CARAVAN TO CATCH A KILLER tours.
Just passed the 10th anniversary of your murder/burial/ birthday (10/4/04). I cried at 10 years passing, cried as I see so few people around us. People express their caring but we never see them beside us. I am too much a reminder that they too could lose their children?
Why over the 10 years, with as much as you were loved, why have fund raising events, memorial events, and a Poker run, all lost the initial people involved, few offering their time for set up and promotion. Even tho I lived with little money those first 7 years, I tried. Now I cry because at post 10.......there is no end to this solitary path.
IT BREAKS MY HEART. I DON'T UNDERSTAND...WHAT MAKES YOU OR ME SO DIFFERENT THAT THESE EVENTS FAIL,
IT BREAKS MY HEART. I DON'T UNDERSTAND...WHAT MAKES YOU OR ME SO DIFFERENT THAT NATIONAL NEWS WILL NOT SHARE OUR STORY, THAT SOME WITH NATIONAL PROFILES WON'T HELP.
HOW CAN IT BE SOO MANY PEOPLE LOVED YOU, YET NO ONE STANDS BY OUR SIDE?
HOW CAN IT BE THAT I HAVE TRAVELLED 106000 MILES ACROSS 46 STATES AND HAD 132 REPORTERS TELL OUR STORY YET NO ONE STANDS BY OUR SIDE?
WHY, WHEN MOST KNOW I AM NOT JUST DOING THIS FOR YOU, BUT TO SAVE OTHER DAUGHTER, NO ONE STANDS BY OUR SIDE?
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF THIS WAS YOUR DAUGHTER?
LOSING A CHILD
A CONVERSATION WITH QUOTES
A CONVERSATION WITH QUOTES
(ME) Brittany, each day I breath your loss, like I did on your burial day when my eyes greeted the first stars of mourning.
" your absence has gone through me, like thread through a needle. Everything I do is stitched with its color.” ― W.S. Merwin
(ME) Brittany, my steps those first days were a solo journey, not knowing where I'd go, what I'd find. And tho steps remain solo sometimes, upon highways where people and their cities bestow gifts upon me, I do not feel alone.
"A beautiful thing never gives so much pain as does failing to hear and see it".Michelangelo
But I refuse to die. People say to me "God I'd die if that happened to me." I tell them, before this happened I thought I would but I learned to live in honor of the lost....
“Tears shed for another person are not a sign of weakness. They are a sign of a pure heart.”
We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey. - Kenji Miyazawa
"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love." - Washington Irving
"Philanthropy is not about money...its about feeling the pain of others and caring enough about their needs to help." Timothy Pina
10 years without solving is when long term unsolved murders need help, It is when money speaks from those who will not tell anything if they don't get paid or deals etc. Sady
I watched $50000 rewards, $100000 help solve murders where 0- to $5000 doesn't . It sometimes seems las if people seeing large reward funds react--"this must be important or "valid" enough for people to offer to help try to solve it and so they give more. But it is only me funding my CARAVANs that crisscross the country, counteracting Britty's silenced voice or trying to fund events which seem to fail...because it is only me?
"We emerge into the light not by denying our pain, but by walking through it"Joan Borysenko
But a story told without reward fund doesn't travel far....we need help...we need voices to tell our story to save other daughters. Do I go another 10 years alone........
WHAT IF THIS WAS YOUR DAUGHTER?
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