Thursday, September 25, 2014

Mother still searching for daughter's killer ten years later

Mother still searching for daughter's killer ten years later: In 2004 Brittany Phillips was murdered in her apartment in Tulsa, Oklahoma. As her family approaches the ten year mark, her mother is still looking for answers, even here in Albany.

Monday, September 22, 2014

10 YEARS, THOUSAND TEARS, STILL TRY TO HAVE HOPE AMID THE SILENCE

In Atlanta. 3rd city to not have any bites at coverage...
........trying to keep the face.
Heading to downtown Atlanta now. I hope a
few people have it in their hearts to try to
email national. With so few stories on this
12th CARAVAN, National is needed more
than ever as we head to the 10th anniversary
with never having a national voice except
mine. And I get tired, run out of money and
sometimes, yes, run out of hope. I can't always
be that strong mother who can handle anything.
Please don't tell me I have done enough, please.....
that does not make me feel better, that doesn't
matter. Her murder deserves to be solved and
laws need to be changed so we stop losing all
these beautiful young girls. This  shouldn't be such a lonely path.....

 
I know its not in vain. It is just selfishly, after all the sh*** I went through with the transmission last year, then the banker from hell almost costing me the house, then the pipes bursting and the car going bad again and it being the 10th anniversary with no suspects matching our DNA and the CARAVAN tours only occurring bonce a year and 1 week of 3 is now through, I am selfishly feeling "Aw come on, don't I get to get at least 1 touchdown.......... I always go on but you know how the years were at DOC. A decade is almost harder than the murder to take because it becomes , realistically so, a solitary path. I just really really needed this to be a good CARAVAN or at least to have NAtional do a story. I have sent 100 emails to the regional city stations and probably about 30 to national. I haven't heard if anyone else is sending national queries about me soooooo. But I am a bobo doll (the clown blowup dolls with the sand in the bottom, you hit them and they fall sideways to the floor but bounce back up...problem is leaks occur........... Thanks guys for your support.

Friday, September 19, 2014

HUSH A BYE DON'T YOU CRY...I WILL TRY.......................................

2.5 days in Dallas--no stories 2.5 days in Shreveport 2 stories--Thanks Shreveport for starting the 12th CARAVAN TO CATCH A KILLER tour on such a great note!!! --2.5 days in Baton Rouge/New Orleans no stories --Now in Mobile and no contact yet. Have sent more than 100 emails out total. Calls in the past have never worked.


I hoped stories would pick up this CARAVAN after last year’s transmission death shortened CARAVAN. Please, if you see the pink/purple CARAVAN Cube with pictures of my daughter, CARAVAN TO CATCH A KILLER on all sides and a profile of her killer on the back, it would be such a gift if some of you would let national news know you saw us driving down the road.


Why is national important? Passing out flyers on street corners helped in the first year after her murder. Yet as crime scene DNA comparisons grew to 800 suspects' with no matches, I had to do more, get her story beyond Tulsa. In addition, a parent losing a child births a cavern inside of their heart, fearing its implosion at any second. Doing something for them, in honor of them helps carry the grief.


Thus, I created the CARAVAN TO CATCHA KILLER tours. The tours attempted to help find her killer through news stories and educate communities about DNA at Conviction (DNA doesn’t mean a person is guilty, it leads to the guilty) or not funding a DNA at Arrest law, leaves women and children unsafe, because the main crimes that go unsolved without DNA are the violent ones of which 90 % of the victims are women and 9% children. Unsolved and the perpetrator continuing to harm In the last 4 years,


Tulsa detectives have now compared her killer's DNA to almost 3000 regional suspects and at least half a million in CODIS without a match (increasing the likelihood her killer could have moved on.) This increases the need for a national story. But my requests go unanswered.


Thus, I keep trying to do CARAVANs. 7 years mostly self-funded. I don’t ask friends or family for money. I've covered 100000 miles across 46 states and have been gifted 128 stories within 120 cities, all treating her story as the "girl next door". I am 59. In 7 years, I have only covered 1/10000 of what national news would. At this rate, I would be 100 before I could even match half of what national would.


Gazing upon Brittany's smile each day as I step into my car, does, at times, have me tell her story through a veil of tears. Her loss, the hollowing part of my heartbeat has not destroyed me. I know people now know her story across the US. I know together, we will diminish the number of families facing this horror. I know my petite, curly headed Britty, my dancing pony princess, her long blond curls framing her angelic face, that with her intense dark brown eyes, she reaches from the sides of my car and she pleads, "Listen to my story, help stop my killer and together also save other daughters." It breaks my heart that right now, it doesn’t feel like anyone is hearing………..

HOPE, LIKE FOOD IS NEEDED TO LIVE, IS NEEDED TO SURVIVE THE LOSS OF A CHILD.........



Sunrise again meets my mourning as I begin to pack up and move on from New Orleans.


I try not to be sad and I fully iunderstand why all this occurs but it doesn't make it any easier to be alone on the road, alone when I am home and not be able to find a way to achieve this mostly on my own for the last 10 years.



At the same time, I will never be able to repay those few people who have been there again and again.
The greatest recharge comes from when I am on the road. It is people passing me on the road,showing thumbs up, who talk to me at rest stops, the reporters who do find our story compelling to their communities, you all are the ones who give me strength to go on.
 But heading towards the decade anniversary in under 3 weeks, being out on the road for almost a week and only 2 strories, no responses at all from the 40 emails sent to various media in both New Orleans and Baton Rogue (these same emails have given us 14-16 STORIES ON PAST CARAVANS.


At 10 years, the primary detective has retired, community media friends, who have followed us for years in Tulsa and Oklahoma City, as most reporters do, have moved on. My CARAVAN TO CATCH A KILLER tours have gone from 2 times a year to 1 time a year due to what I can afford.


The time out becomes more costly while getting fewer stories,




Trying to organize the balloon release at the Capitol on 10/4/14 the 10th anniversary. Trying to get volunteers for the "Walk with Brit on Rt 66; Diminish the risk--needing 4-5 days of drivers driving the WRAP behind me, other needs. So far the usual 2-3 say they will.


I have never been able to draw many and not sure why, haven't been able to raise a reward fund etc. It seems now even less volunteers to help with events. When I am around people, they seem to be compelled to help.......................then I stand alone.


But usually I vent like this and move on.... and that is what I am doing,


IF YOU SEE US ON THE ROAD...PLEASE HONK, TELL YOUR LOCAL NEWS YOU SAW US.
IF YOU KNOW HOW TO EMAIL, LET NATIONAL NEWS KNOW YOU SAW THIS. IF NATIONAL NEWS COULD SHARE THIS, I COULD STOP AT 103000 MILES.

WITH GRATITUDE FOR THOSE WHO DO ACKNOWLEDGE US!!

Thursday, September 18, 2014

12thCARAVAN TO CATCH A KILLER=A MOTHER'S 100000 MILE MISSION OF LOVE-FOR ALL DAUGHTERS

Brittany Phillips September 16 at 11:03pm · . Shreveport Thank you!!! Channel 6 and Christian Hanson and he Shreveport Times and Maya Lau, , thank you for thinking our story mattered for your city. And the people of the city who came up and talked to me today...the hugs. the acknowledgement of my loss and even voicing your own fears. This is why I do the CARAVAN TO CATCH A KILLER tours. Today you all helped me to possibly save lives and maybe find my daughter's killer. You all have a place close to my heart