HOPE, LIKE FOOD IS NEEDED TO LIVE, IS NEEDED TO SURVIVE THE LOSS OF A CHILD.........

Sunrise again meets my mourning as I begin to pack up and move on from New Orleans.


I try not to be sad and I fully iunderstand why all this occurs but it doesn't make it any easier to be alone on the road, alone when I am home and not be able to find a way to achieve this mostly on my own for the last 10 years.



At the same time, I will never be able to repay those few people who have been there again and again.
The greatest recharge comes from when I am on the road. It is people passing me on the road,showing thumbs up, who talk to me at rest stops, the reporters who do find our story compelling to their communities, you all are the ones who give me strength to go on.
 But heading towards the decade anniversary in under 3 weeks, being out on the road for almost a week and only 2 strories, no responses at all from the 40 emails sent to various media in both New Orleans and Baton Rogue (these same emails have given us 14-16 STORIES ON PAST CARAVANS.


At 10 years, the primary detective has retired, community media friends, who have followed us for years in Tulsa and Oklahoma City, as most reporters do, have moved on. My CARAVAN TO CATCH A KILLER tours have gone from 2 times a year to 1 time a year due to what I can afford.


The time out becomes more costly while getting fewer stories,




Trying to organize the balloon release at the Capitol on 10/4/14 the 10th anniversary. Trying to get volunteers for the "Walk with Brit on Rt 66; Diminish the risk--needing 4-5 days of drivers driving the WRAP behind me, other needs. So far the usual 2-3 say they will.


I have never been able to draw many and not sure why, haven't been able to raise a reward fund etc. It seems now even less volunteers to help with events. When I am around people, they seem to be compelled to help.......................then I stand alone.


But usually I vent like this and move on.... and that is what I am doing,


IF YOU SEE US ON THE ROAD...PLEASE HONK, TELL YOUR LOCAL NEWS YOU SAW US.
IF YOU KNOW HOW TO EMAIL, LET NATIONAL NEWS KNOW YOU SAW THIS. IF NATIONAL NEWS COULD SHARE THIS, I COULD STOP AT 103000 MILES.

WITH GRATITUDE FOR THOSE WHO DO ACKNOWLEDGE US!!

9TH ANNIVERSARY WEEK 9/27 THRU 10/4....SOME DAYS I AM NOT AS STRONG............

It feels like everything is slipping out of my hands. Within the last year our lead detective retired, the next one was promoted out of the department, we have a greta one now but I rarely hear from him. It is the 9th anniversary week and even my car leaves me. It is in the shop because the replacement transmission is falling apart and it is 1000 miles away from it being out of warranty so I need to get it worked on even thought it was replaced this past July with 20000 miles on it when it was "pulled out" from another car. It had a 12 year or 12000 mile warranty-what does that tell you.
And even though the transmission keeps slipping no computer codes show there is a problem. Thousands have complained about this but Nissan Consumer department and they say the heads of Nissan refuse to fix anything unless the codes say it is not working----really after 1000 + have the same complaint??.
It breaks my heart to be without the wrapped CUBE on her birth/death anniversary. I want to go and get it. It is my life force. I know that now. It is how I connect Britty to the rest of the world. Below is a vent. I vent and get past. Some days it seems I won't get past this past year....

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